December 2011
: Ch-ch-changes... →
alanajoy:
There are two kinds of change. There’s the kind you create and the kind that is thrust upon you. Either way, change is inevitable. Fighting it is futile, nay… detrimental. The only way to have any semblance of control over change is to instigate it yourself.
I’ve spent the bulk of my life…
November 2011
THE ANGRY THERAPIST: Closure →
theangrytherapist:
Many believe they need to close a chapter before opening a new one. They see closure as a cleansing, a washing away, and they don’t allow themselves to move on until what is preventing them from moving on has completely dissolved. But if that’s the case, wouldn’t closure stunt growth? Not allowing…
April 2011
December 2010
H: Why are you being so nice to me after everything I did?
D: Because I'm letting go of the outcome. Because I can't fix this for you. And I can't take responsibility for it.
October 2010
“They say losing a lover is hard. Losing a friend is harder. And losing both is...”
– ~ Erica Strange
Sometimes...
I forget that I’m completely heart broken. And then I’ll see something or read something, and this sadness washes over me.
Sometimes - I’ll know right away what triggered the feeling and why…
Sometimes - I wish I could just keep forgetting.
On Rumi
Since my last life - I’ve had an entirely new life. What I mean to say - is that over the last year or so - I’ve lived what feels like a lifetime. An entire lifetime of new people, new experiences, new dreams, new places, new foods, new beliefs - new everything.
It’s just like Rumi said: “Give up this life, and get 100 new lives”.
Honoring the Impermanence of...
I'm Crying
Over a direct message from a dear friend:
“Growing up in the commonly understood sense is really quite pedestrian. You, my love, are not pedestrian.”
I can’t tell you how wonderful it feels when another person gives me permission to be who I am - and not who they want me to be.
September 2010
Stuff
Wow oh wow! Major congrats to Qwiki.com for winning #TCDisrupt. I called it. Plus thinking about their technology kept me up all night last night. I’m looking forward to meeting them in person - hoping I’ll have the opportunity to help them “Change The World”.
How is it that I can completely and totally forget about a person who seemed so integral and important to my...
I Want...
To just dance around my room screaming how happy I am at the top of my lungs. Yup. That’s the kind of day it’s been.
I’m “Making A Baby” with one of my favorite people in the world (his words). Which is code for launching a kickass project. I think.
An article I wrote for another blog went up today - and I even got a negative (personal) comment. Which made me...
How Is It?
How is it … that I’m more excited about the prospect of spending 11 Days in Italy by myself - then being in a relationship? There must be some “normal girl” gene that I didn’t get (for whatever reason).
Oh well…Italy by Train it is ;)
August 2010
“It may be different for others, but pain is what it took to teach me to pay...”
– ~Julia Cameron
Banging Head Against The Wall Sort of Moment
Of course I’m MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU…isn’t it painfully obvious? #ThinkingNotRequired.
The Things I Know But Cannot Say
I’m going to make this short - because it’s better for the book if I do.
When RRF and I were in Oceanside we met with a Medium. At first I was unconvinced. I listened as she talked to Rami…and I wondered who would she say was standing behind me - who was watching over me from beyond. She surprised me by saying she saw me not surrounded by a person I had lost - but instead by...
Funny...
There were 10 things that I knew. And looking back on it, I was right about all 10. It’s a rare gift when you can really see a person. When you can really see them and love them anyway - rarer still.
Getting Better
The more I read, the more I understand about the world - the more I understand about myself…the better my writing becomes.
I’ve read 3 books this week so far - and I’m hoping to finish another one this evening. I’m on a marathon reading binge. I’ve made a list of books to read that some say would be impossible to get through in a lifetime. I am getting through...
Not Mine To Give
I once gave someone permission to love me. They didn’t take it.
I once gave someone permission to hate me. They didn’t take it.
I once gave someone permission to blame me. They didn’t take it.
And then I realized none of those things were mine to give.
Tough Realization
I think I’m trying to force someone into playing a certain role in my life, that they don’t really want to play. Sometimes I get ideas in my head about how I think things should be - and I push too hard. This is one of those times.
I’m gonna stop now and let it go.
Too many expectations make for continuous disappointments.
“Come to think of it, why would anyone want to marry a friend? I have plenty of...”
– Karen Maezen Miller
(Something I always say…I have ENOUGH friends. And I don’t want to marry a friend. I want to marry a stranger who I can take a lifetime getting to know).
“I once read a testimonial from a woman who was trying out the ‘law of...”
– Karen Maezen Miller
Conversation I Just Had In My Head
Me: Why Don’t You Read Anymore?
Me: What are you talking about? I just read a book the other day. Read the whole book in two days in fact.
Me: Oh…right. Then I guess maybe you need to read more…?
Me: I read all day long, from the moment I wake up in the morning - until bed. I read blogs, books, newspapers, magazines. I read ALL THE TIME.
Me: Still doesn’t seem...
Hmm...
At my current rate of weight loss it’s going to take me 36 Weeks to get to my goal weight. That seems like so long. But then I remember how long it took me to put the weight on in the first place ;)
The most important thing - is that I feel good and I feel healthier and healthier every day.
Sometimes I Have the STUPIDEST Conversations →
You Can't...
Force someone to be your friend. You can’t force another person to do anything. And just because it’s what you want - doesn’t mean it’s what they want. And that sucks. But that’s life. No one said it would be easy. And no one said it would be fair. But I promise it will always be an adventure.
And sometimes there comes a point in time when you have to give up...
I'm A Chicken ;)
I just wrote @rrfrankl an email that I may never send him. At least it’s beautifully written though…
July 2010
The Best Description I've Ever Read of What I...
New Media is creating a new generation of influencers and it is resetting the hierarchy of authority, while completely freaking out those who once held power without objection. The truth is that most of the existing formulas, methodologies, and systems miss or completely ignore the role of new influencers to INSPIRE ACTION, CAUSE CHANGE, SPARK TRENDS, and RECRUIT ADVOCATES. We are absent...
He's Such A Good Guy →
YAY!
On the phone with Rami. So glad he called. I was feeling really lonely for some reason ;)
Learning about Producer’s Points. And residuals.
Just Went in the Kitchen
To hug Mark…and I was about to tell him “I’m So Happy.” When he said - “Aww…you’re so happy.” And I said…weird I was just about to say that. And he said - “I know you.”
True. Apparently.
“Often in life, you might take a wrong turn, but at the time, you may not be...”
– (via juliaallison and Amanda)
What does it look like to “Finally Arrive”? What if we already have - and we’re missing it cause we didn’t know what to expect?
Haha ;)
Ahh…Todd just told me he’d be my Huckleberry tonight. I have no idea what that means…but it sounds fun! ;) KaraokeFTW!!!
Luck =
You know how they are always saying that when Opportunity Meets Preparation = LUCK. Well, what if that’s only half the equation?
My partner in crime, Sloane said something really interesting the other day. So interesting in fact - that it might make a good REAL blog post. Let me get my brain working and see if I can’t post something later today ;)
Long Day
I should probably apologize to Mark for snapping at him over and over again this afternoon when he was only trying to help. I’m such a bitch when I’m under stress.
But - WE DID IT! And when I say “We” I mean that. I am so incredibly grateful to Ed, Katie, and Sloane - without them…that proposal never would have come together. But it did. And it wasn’t...
I've Decided
I really like Mark’s life. It’s sorta - kinda AWESOME. Especially the pillows on his bed…and the bathtub…
Was talking to David the other day - and he said - so how long are you staying…and I said…I’m not sure. I guess until you guys kick me out. And he said - then I guess you’re staying forever cause we love having you here.
#FamilyFTW
The Big Lesson I Learned This Week
I’m a bit of a control freak. Especially when it comes to business. I have a terrible time letting go and letting someone else steer a project. Or at least, that’s what I thought.
This past week I’ve been partnering with my friend Sloane on a new venture called The Party Crashers, and I mean “partnering” in the very truest sense of the word. Somehow, we’ve...
See? It's Not Weird That I Miss Him →
Super Psyched
Randi Zuckerberg invited Sloane & me out to the New Facebook Headquarters for lunch on Wednesday. That’s the beauty of the valley. Things happen fast here.
Then we’re heading over to The Microsoft Offices to play with the new Windows Phone 7.
Trying to Talk...
David & Mark into coming to Seattle the 1st week in September so I can cook them dinner ;)
Oh - and working with David at The Nut House. I love it here. I wish I’d brought a swimsuit!